Slowly ... day by day ... my new life is beginning to take shape. It seemed as though "God" had placed a pause on many aspects of my life, and pressed fast play on others. If I am continuing to go with the flow, I have realized that sometimes parts of the river get hung up on rocks, or caught in eddies and whirlpools. I think I have a lot to learn about accepting the process!
All of a sudden, this week, my day planner is starting to fill up with yoga classes! Subsequently, I feel the immediate stress of being a working Mom, but I am doing my best to take care of myself daily. Unfortunately, some days I literally don't have time! So it's chanting OM in the car, or making sure to pack myself raw veggies or a gorgeous smoothie. This morning I was able to practice yoga - and even had a 5 minute Savasana! (For any other yoga teachers out there, you'll understand how precious this was).
It is nice to feel wanted though, as I feel that I have so much to offer, and I don't enjoy being stagnant. It's not my favourite. I absolutely love to teach yoga, and it doesn't really matter who I'm teaching or where I'm teaching. If the students are receptive, well that is all I need!
Yesterday, I think my new schedule caught up to me though. I woke up in a complete fog, with my sinuses congested, and feeling cold ... because the furnace was blowing out cold air - Shriek! I had to leave earlier than usual to get my car serviced in Kamloops. So I grabbed a coffee and hopped onto the Coquihalla Highway ... heading the wrong way! Ugh. So I drove to the next exit and got going in the right direction. All went fairly well on the drive, but after I paid for the work on my car, I backed out of my parking spot - right into a wall. Thank goodness it wasn't a car or horribly worse, a person ... I'm normally such a careful driver. Clearly I was not living in the moment or I would have seen the wall!
Lesson learned. Pay attention Nicole. Be here NOW.
Perhaps it is the residual energy of that spectacular Full Moon a few days ago, combined with the thinning of the veil between the worlds as we approach Halloween. I feel that this Saturday will be an excellent time for manifesting our desires, and I fully intend to do a solitary circle on Halloween to do just that. I am hoping that I will be able to feel my Mom's presence as well.
Whatever I do today, however, I will be sure to stay present, stay focused and stay energized!!
Nicole
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Thursday, October 29, 2015
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Obligation
Obligation. This is a word that has recently been clouding my personal atmosphere. It is disabling my connection to the Universe and buggering up my usual good judgement. There is nothing more frustrating than not being able to see what one is supposed to be doing.
I generally have a very good sense of my destiny, and often receive information from my life which guides me to exactly where I need to be. However, in light of the many changes and upsets in my dramatic life, I feel muddy in the head. I can't seem to make a guided decision. I can't seem to channel the wisdom that has so often comforted me in times like these. I suppose, however, that there have truly never been "times like these" for me. There is just so much going on.
Last night we held a circle in my dear friend's backyard. We nestled in amongst the trees, circling the fire, catching sights of the moon through the rich boughs of evergreens. It was there, in that sacred place that I was able to finally see what I had been doing to myself. I have been pushing through these stormy times, against the wind and rain, becoming battered and hurt by one little word: Obligation.
So, I decided to give back these "obligations" to the Universe. I said that I need them to be manifested differently. I clearly created the feelings, but when I didn't know how to change them, I simply allowed to Universe to absorb them. What a feeling of relief, I must say. I did not realize how much stuff I was holding on to. Fear. Hopelessness. Responsibility. Obligation. And it is so amazing that I created all of this for myself! And in such a short span of time.
But I feel cleansed this morning. "The morning is wiser than the evening" - this Russian proverb comes back to me frequently, because it is so true to life. It sounds like something my mom has said to me before. Actually she has. But it really sounds like something that would come from her. My mom is a wise wise woman. I should take her advices more often, but she is not the type to offer advice in an inappropriate moment. She is so very patient that way, and that is something I hope to develop in myself. I admire her very much for how she holds back, compromises, waits patiently for the right time to say things. Sometimes the perfect moment doesn't arise at all. I don't know how she bears that kind of situation. Especially with three daughters!
The Full Moon is now beginning to wane already, and we will be working our way to the New ... I wonder what lessons the New Moon will hold? It is only two weeks away.
I generally have a very good sense of my destiny, and often receive information from my life which guides me to exactly where I need to be. However, in light of the many changes and upsets in my dramatic life, I feel muddy in the head. I can't seem to make a guided decision. I can't seem to channel the wisdom that has so often comforted me in times like these. I suppose, however, that there have truly never been "times like these" for me. There is just so much going on.
Last night we held a circle in my dear friend's backyard. We nestled in amongst the trees, circling the fire, catching sights of the moon through the rich boughs of evergreens. It was there, in that sacred place that I was able to finally see what I had been doing to myself. I have been pushing through these stormy times, against the wind and rain, becoming battered and hurt by one little word: Obligation.
So, I decided to give back these "obligations" to the Universe. I said that I need them to be manifested differently. I clearly created the feelings, but when I didn't know how to change them, I simply allowed to Universe to absorb them. What a feeling of relief, I must say. I did not realize how much stuff I was holding on to. Fear. Hopelessness. Responsibility. Obligation. And it is so amazing that I created all of this for myself! And in such a short span of time.
But I feel cleansed this morning. "The morning is wiser than the evening" - this Russian proverb comes back to me frequently, because it is so true to life. It sounds like something my mom has said to me before. Actually she has. But it really sounds like something that would come from her. My mom is a wise wise woman. I should take her advices more often, but she is not the type to offer advice in an inappropriate moment. She is so very patient that way, and that is something I hope to develop in myself. I admire her very much for how she holds back, compromises, waits patiently for the right time to say things. Sometimes the perfect moment doesn't arise at all. I don't know how she bears that kind of situation. Especially with three daughters!
The Full Moon is now beginning to wane already, and we will be working our way to the New ... I wonder what lessons the New Moon will hold? It is only two weeks away.
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